Monday, December 24, 2012
Mom:
I went to your grave today, and I was there yesterday with Mikey, he bought a grave blanket for you. God if you only knew how much I miss you and how I wish you were here to talk to. The older I get the more I wonder what it would be like to have a relationship with you know that I'm an adult. As the holidays arrive I can't help but feel like a piece of me is missing without you to share them with. Since you have been gone there has never been a Christmas that has been the same. Mikey and I were just sayin yesterday how we miss waking up to you with te music blasting, dancing around the house like a crazy person lol. I miss hearing your laugh and most of all I miss hearing u call my name out of the blue and telling me you just called to say you love me. I'm living with dad now which I'm sure you know and I think you would be proud of him. He has come a long way. I hope that I'm making you proud as well. I don't know why I write here but for me it's the only place I can write to you....I guess I will go to sleep now, and all I ask is to please come see me in my dreams, it's been a while. Merry Christmas mom, I love you and miss you with all my heart and soul. I know you will be with us all tomorrow night at Stevens. Xoxo (ps, I love you mostesterester) :)
