Contributions to the tribute of Joan A. Baker

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Joann posted a condolence

Hey Mom, Just stopping in to say hello and Merry early Christmas. I wish I could be home and go see you at the cemetery, but at least here I can look at your picture and see your beautiful face instead of a stone. I miss you a whole lot and wish you could be here for the holidays. I know you are watching over all of us but i would rather you here with us. It was hard to watch you go but even harder wishing you could be here with us all. As you know I am so far away from everyone and I not sure of it makes it easier or harder knowing that those Christmas get together will and are so very different with out you there. I miss everyone and wish they could come out to see me, but I know everyone is busy with their lives. I miss everyone especially you. I love you mommy and Merry Christmas !!!! :-)

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urs posted a condolence

Hi mom, it's been a long time. I just do NOT like coming here and writing to you, I much prefer going to the cemetary. To me, this is like reliving that moment, in a bizzarre way. Anyway, alot has been going on, but you know this:-)...The kids are doing grt, Candis miss you alot. Once in awhile she will cry, and when i ask her why is she crying, she says she misses grandma...I don't know what to say, except that we all do. We stopped in to visit your sister ursula and from the path to her door we could smell food cooking (sauce-aka:gravy) Candis asked which apt does she live in and i told her to follow the smell of the food.lol... Candis said it smell like she is cooking gravy....... Well she was right, sauce and meatballs. Candis asked aunt ursula if she can have a meatball and of course she said "yes honey, have two!" When we left Candis starting crying and said wow that reminded me sooo much of grandmas. I guess in a way it was warming. So maybe if you get a chance you may want to thank your sister ;-) it was a nice feeling, a feeling of you leaving a mark we can still all relate too. I miss you mom... but then again I always miss you.On another note: Aggie is getting married this weekend. Yes you heard me correctly. I think we all are apprehensive with the marriage because of the struggles in her life and how far she has come as an individual, we don't want to see her hurt. But knowing aggie the way we do, I she has made this decision then she must internally be very happy. So plse mom send her some blessing and let her know we all love her very much and want nothing but happiness for her, and if Roy is the one to do it- then so be it!! I think we all just wish she could have done it here so we, as her sisters could have helped her with it and helped her celebrate it together. I would have loved to help her shop for her dress and helped her do her hair. I think this is why Nikki is so upset, she really wanted to be apart of it with aggie. But nothing we can do about it now. So watch over her on this special day. We will figure something special to do with her when she gets back. Other than that, i would like to think we are all doing ok- or atleast the best that we can be.... LOVE YOU SOOOOOOOOOOOO. I will write soon. give our best to Ed.

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Kyle posted a condolence

Hey grandma, im here in korea so far away from home, i guess i assumed you would always be here, i miss the love we got to share. i think about you often when i run pray and sleep, i miss you and i love you :/

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heather posted a condolence

Hey Grandma. I went to your grave for the first time. I know i havent been down to visit you since u left.. im sorry for that. but i do manage to talk to u as much as i can thru out my day without looking crazy to people. Being at ur grave broke me inside. It was just like yesterday i was pluckin ur eye brows, and there i was pulling leaves off ur grave. Im writing you because i miss you, and yesterday i was at walmart and i saw a little girl with no hair and rashes all over her face, but she was so happy. I dont know her but i prayed for her. She reminded me of u. I cant stop thinkin about her. Her smile made me pray even more for a cure. she affected me somehow. I wanna help those in need, even if i cant cure them, it seems like a smile goes a long way these days. i miss u so much and i love u more and more everyday i live without u. Where ever u are grandma, i hope you are pain free at peace and very happy. I know while u were with us, we all did our best to take good care of u, now its gods turn and i hope hes doin a really good job. love you

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Ursula posted a condolence

Hi mom, it's two years and it kills me to come here.im sorry, i havent been here since then. something about signing into an obituary to say hi to my mom, screams sadness too me. i wish you were here and i wish i saved your voice mail just so i can hear your voice. i miss you so much mom- we all do. i know you know several of us girls brought you flowers yesterday from all of us. i know you have come to see me several times in my dreams, thanks so much mom, i just wish i was coherent enough in the dream so i can hug you and tell you i love you. please dont stop, maybe one day i'll catch it in time. Of all days, I took my nurses entry test today. So many times I wished you behind me to hit me in the back of the head on what answer was the correct one. (yea it was a tough test)... Wish me luck mom- i really want to pass this test. Part of me dredded the day and the other part thought, this is my lucky day (mom will guide me through it)..time will tell now!!.. but time can never heal the sadness and empty part of all of our hearts that we all feel here without you. I LOVE U mom and miss you so much. always and forever your kids! xoxoxox

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Joann posted a condolence

Hi Mom, Well its been 2 years and I don't think this gets easier just different ways of dealing. I hope you know that we all miss you so much and love you more and more every day. I am going to keep this short . just wanted to tell you I miss you and I'm thinking about you... I love you mom

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Joann posted a condolence

Hey Mama, I see Heather wrote you, and Heather no worries GOD is taking care of her as he does all his children. It's nice to see I am not the only one who talks to her on here, I cannot be there or go to the cemetery, so i find my peace here and knowing that GOD is carrying her in the palms of his hands offers me comfort all the time. Does not make the hurt go away or the tears from falling, but sooth's the worry. She is an amazing lady and we all loved her so much, but nothing can explain or come close to the love she had for her grandchildren. Christmas is around the corner and I WILL SO MISS her and the Christmas's with her. But she is watching all of us and she will be there in spirit and memory, nothing and no one can ever take that away darling. I love you Heather and I miss you guys. Mom. I cannot tell you HOW MUCH it hurts and so many tears that fall because you are not here. But I know you are ok and I know is taking care of you, but some day's are so much harder than others. We want to be selfish and we want you here with us. I LOVE YOU MOM AND I MISS YOU SO MUCH, HAPPY HOLIDAYS MOMMY and Celebrate the Birth of Christ with him himself. That has to be one heck of a party. :-) .. Dear lord please watch mama as I know you are until we are called home and can meet with her again. Please let her know how much we all miss her and what an amazing mother she was. She did such an amazing job and never even knew it. Please lord allow her to look down and be able to see inside each and every one of our hearts so she will never doubt herself or the impact she had on all her children and grandchildren. Then she will know WHAT A WONDERFUL JOB SHE DID... I love you mommy and I miss you !!!

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heather posted a condolence

hey grandma ... every night when is quiet.. i throw on a song that brings back memories of u.. and i cry like the biggest baby for u. selfishly i wanna say i need you. i love u so much, your always on my mind. your voice is always in my head. i relive your memory everyday so that ur never forgotten. ill never stop shedding tears for u grandma cuz every tear represents the things uve done and the love you gave to me... i miss you grandma.. i miss u more and more everyday ill live without u.. i can only pray that god taking u was the right thing to do. that maybe your happy now..

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Joann posted a condolence

Hey mama, Well as you already know, I am finally going to have the wedding that we so deserve. I just wish you could be here to see it. I know you will be watching from above, but its not the same. I miss you a lot. I talked to Aunt Ursula yesterday and she sounds so much like you. I wish you were here. I know you would have come to the wedding and sat in that front seat PROUD as can be. I LOVE YOU MOM and MISS YOU SO MUCH !!

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Joann posted a condolence

Hey ma, I guess I am having a bad day but I need your help. Its kinda funny even though you are no longer here on earth with us we still find ourselfs going to you for help. Anyway, I am not real pleased about this deployment Jason is on as you already know. Can you do me a huge favor and if its Gods will and plan that he does not make it home this time can you please watch over him as you did us for so many years. I know he will be sad and need someone there for him. I know that God will help him through everything but sometimes a familiar face is always good. I love you mom and I miss you much, and BTW Thanks I know you will take care of him. One more thing, if he does make it to you before me can you Tell him I love him and I will see him again and I will follow everything he asked me to.

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Joann posted a condolence

Hey Mom, " HAPPY BIRTHDAY", I hope you are having a fun filled day up there with all your brothers, sisters, and friends. We all miss you and wish you were here with us. It breaks my heart that I cannot be there and go to the grave site to say happy birthday in person and have to do it on here. I LOVE YOU MOM and MISS YOU !!!! Have fun and dont party too hard !!!

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~*~AnGiE~*~ posted a condolence

Hey Grandma, I try not to write because it breaks my heart in peices...I think about you and my mom and how far away you guys were from eachother, and I wonder if I'll end up the same way...wishing for more sweet time to love her and hold her and tell her I love her. I know she misses you more than words can describe. We all do, we all miss you. Kisses and hugs to you. I miss you.

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Kyle! posted a condolence

Well Grandma, I joined the army, and i leave on october 6th!!! I haven't been more ecited about anythin in my entire life!!! for some reason its what i want to do. i know the cost and the sacrafice i will have to make but it wont be that hard thinking about the ones you make when you were here...I have been getting along pretty well actually, Its only one life to live and you were the first person i have lost that i love so i refer everything to what would have grandma done, I only wish i could have stayed in New jersey since i was a kid, More memories of you would help alot!!! But the thought of you by my side i feel free!!! Well i have to go now...I love you!! Now, Tomorrow, Forever!

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me posted a condolence

Hey mom, No one writes you anymore. that kinds worries me. I guess they are all making it to the grave site. Things are a bit hard as I am sure you know. I keep praying and keeping my faith. I miss you mama and I love you so much. I miss All my sisters and brothers. Sometimes I wonder what the heck made me move to the Mountains. Anyway. I just wanted to stop by and say hi. and that I love and miss you. I wish you were here!!! LUV YA MOM

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me posted a condolence

Hey Mama, I just wanted to stop by and wish you a HAPPY MOTHERS DAY !!!It was weird, I kept feeling like I was missing something and wanting to call you. Very odd day, anyway I hope you had a fun day and you know we were all thinking about you. The lord has you in his arms and is caring for you in a joyous place. I love you mom and I miss you dearly.

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Heather posted a condolence

Grandma i miss u so much. Please come visit or show me a sign to believe ur truely ok.. i cant believe in anything anymore from the way i watched u go. Im still so mad that u suffered to the end. I wish u said something that day i wish i could have just somehow connected with u thru thoughts to know exactly what u were thinking.. if u even remembered any of us at that point. i hate life without you. I can believe your watching over us yeah, but i just feel like i wanna jump in the car and go over your house. I cant bring myself to go to the cemetary. maybe im being selfish, but i relive ur last day everyday of my life. and im mad, and i really dont know who to be mad at but im so angry. ugh just please show me ur okay somehow. i seriously need something to see to believe it cuz its killing me everyday... *ugh* i miss u ... =(

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Me posted a condolence

Hey mom. Well its been a year today that you left our world and joined god in his. I know he is taking care of you and you are spending time with your brother, sisters, nieces, and nephews. That does not make us miss you any less. However, eases our mind a little though. We all miss you so much and I am a little angry I cannot go see you at the cemetary. I love you mama and miss you bunches.

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Joann posted a condolence

Hey beautiful, how are you doing up there. I am sure fine and the lord is watching over you. As you know Kyle is coming home and moving back with me, which is great. I am so excited. I miss ya mom ... I am sue people must think im nuts, cause I write you on here all the time. But thats my way of keeping intouch woth you in addition to prayer. I cannot go to the cemetary but sometimes i think this is better, im not talking toa stone and its not cold and wet, You have a smile on your face in your picture and I can see you. I love you mom and just needed to see your face and touch base with ya. Big Kisses and Hugs

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me posted a condolence

Hey darlin, How are you. You keep coming to me in my dreams but i am missing what you are saying or the message you are giving me. You were not very comfortable im my last one, whats wrong Mom?? I know you miss us all and WE MISS U 2. Its ok to rest now we are gonna be fine. I will call everyone and make sure they are ok if that will set you at ease. I have talked to nikki, aggie, urs, and tommy and you always know how hard it is to get with michael. I will call and make sure everything is OK. I love you Mom and miss you so very much. You were really the back bone to us all and taught us so much. You will be proud to know that I am finishing my double major in Criminal Justice and Homeland Security and plan on going either FBI or ICE. I have this semester to finish my 1st degree and I should have my Bachelors in about 1 1/2 years. Yeah i know I still have not figured out what I want to be when I grow up and a desk job is just not for me. I like putting the bad guy behind bars and taking the dealers off the streets , that whats gonna keep you grandchildren and great granchildren safe and sound, I pray. I have come closer to the lord and am very happy with learning his will and grace. Its just a matter of doing the right thing in my life and this is working for all if us. THe boys are coming in April. Jason and I are so excited and Jason goes to Iraq in June, Watch over him MOM as I know you will. Bring him home safe and keep the bad guys away. I know you have it in with the man upstairs so if you could put a little bug in his ear to keep the boys safe on their journey here and Jason safe over seas i would much appreciate it. Well I have the kids up for school and Jason off to work and them me off to school. I love mommy and I miss you so much. You are beautiful and a wonderful person. We are all proud of you, your courage, and desire, and we all THANK YOU for being YOU and loving everyone of us as we loved you !!!!!

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Kyle posted a condolence

Hey, well its alot different, with you and my mom gone...shes half way across the world..it seems like i wont ever see her again, its hard staying here without her, she just doesnt know, i try and act tough but i just cant sometimes. i have learned alot about how much it takes to survive and things are tough right now, it really suck, well i hope your doing well..take care

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Me posted a condolence

Hey mom, how are thing going. I am sure well. I know you are dancing around upo there with the king of kings. I am surprised to see that no one had written in a while. Just wanted to let you know that I think about you all the time and miss you even more. I love you mom. Enjoy your time in the glorious kingdom and blessed be with you and everyone in his glorious presence.

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Joann posted a condolence

MERRY CHRISTMAS MOM !!!! Well this is our first Christmas without you. Very odd day and sp very different. I think everyone up north is have there get together on Saturday. I know thats gonna be hard on everyone. I wish I could be there. Nikkie bought and amazing gift that i will cherish forever. But I guess you already know that. I guess if you are going to be somewhere for Christmas what better place to be then there with the Lord celebrating the birth of his son. We all miss you mom and we love you so much. I PRAY YOU HAVE A VERY MERRY CHRISTMAS AND KNOW THAT YOU ARE ALWAYS IN OUR THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS. LOVE YOU MOMMY !!!

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Joann posted a condolence

Hey MOM, Well Thanksgiving came and gone, as you know we are up here in the Mountains, a little closer to you in heaven. Times are about to get real hard without you here for the Holidays. I didnt come home for Thanksgiving usually but i always called you. That was hard thinking I should be calling and wishing you a happy turkey day but knowing you would not answer. i found myself calling you a few times and getting the recording that the line was no longer in service. Strange how things that seem so effortless now have become a major task. Christmas is going to be so hard. I will never regret the time i spent home last yea with you and all of us having that wonderful family christmas as we always have. You loved Christmas and always made sure we got what we wanted no matter what. You were amazing MOM and we miss you so very much. As you know we went to your grave when I came home and I hope that blanket is keeping you warm. I dream about you a whole lot here I am not sure why,but very often you appear in my dreams I am trying to figure them out, and I cannot recall what the dream is but i recall your face and you being there. I guess one day I will sort this all out but untill them keep coming to see me and know that we ALL love you and one more thing mom, I think Nikki Needs you right now. We cannot comfort her like you can. She is having a hard time with the Holidays, Of course she wont say anything to me bit I can hear it in her voice. Please go and see her and let her know that you are alright. She hurts all the time MOM, but you know nikki she is the big sister and she is all about hard headed ( apple dont fall far from the tree). Well I love you MOMMY and I miss you. We will talk again soon. Rest well and tell everyone I said Hello. Tell aunt Maryanne that i should meet with donna this weekend and hopefully we can re-establish the relatonship you all have worked on keeping with us all ...

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heather posted a condolence

Hey Grandma, I realized lighting a candle for you only gives everyone some comfort knowing they are not alone in the thoughts and stuggles of coping without you. We all write in this, yet you never even knew how to turn a computer on.. lol but im sure like me whenever a candle is lit we all take the time out and read eachothers thoughts. So here are mine. Thanksgiving day i was at aunt nikki's and as hard as i tried to avoid going over to the little memorial she has set up for you- i did. i miss you so much, and im not enjoying the holidays without you. Its hard to bring you up in conversation because its way to sensitive to talk about you without stumbling on our words. I think about you so much, i wonder where you are and if u really somehow still with all of us. If I could just have back 1 minute of last christmas with you, id try and squeeze a lifetime of my feelings for you in 60 seconds. I cant even go to your grave , i feel so selfish but its like i wanna pretend your on a cruise and your out enjoying your retirement. I miss you so much, and after reading all of these candles, there are so many of us that you made such a postive impact on. I love you grandma, and i always will.

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angela posted a condolence

I know I probably shouldn't write right now but I don't see any harm/ I know you gone but I just wish sometimes you were here.I do good somedays but I can't listen to "in my daughters eyes" anymore. I can't look at my mom the same either. Some people say that there is no good that comes out of losing someone you love, and their right to a point. I have learned to appreciate my mother more because I couldn't see my life without her. you have taught me when you were here and you've taught me since you've been gone and I love you very much. I miss you.

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JOEY (JOJO) posted a condolence

HEY GRANDMA, HOW ARE YOU, WE ALL MISS YOU DOWN HERE AND HOPE YOU ARE DOING WELL IN THE LORDS KINGDOM. CAN YOU DO ME A FAVOR AND TELL GOD WE SAID HELLO. WILL YOU PLEASE TAKE CARE OF PENUT AND JOHNNY (MY HAMSTERS) AS YOU KNOW THEY ALSO CAME TO STAY WITH THE LORD. WE LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU.

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Joann posted a condolence

hey mama, Ursula and Aggie said you came saw them, that was great. I miss you and as I am sure you already know I will be leaving to go to Colorado in just a few weeks. I think the family is going to come and see me cause I wont get to come home. I know I should come and see you at the cemetary, but I just cannot bring myself to go there, I hope you understand, the thought of you laying in a cold place and knowing how you disliked being cold when you were ill just hurts. I made a blanket for you and will give it to Urs when I see her to put it on your grave to help keep you warm for the winter. I love you mom and I Miss you a WHOLE LOT !!! Tommy and I have spent a bunch of time together and we all keep intough with one another like we promissed we would. Nikkie is still playing mother hen, but did we expect anythign less, NAW, She is a great big sister and doing well trying to fill your shoed. I think somethimes she forgets we are grown, same as you did, but thats not a bad thing and we all LOVE HER for it as we did YOU !! I know you are with the lord and he is caring for you as he does all his children. I will see you in heaven again someday. I LOVE YOU MOM !!!

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Dawn Burrafato(Petrowski) posted a condolence

Ma, I just wanted to write and say thank you for taking care of me when my own mother didn't want me. Thank you for taking me into your family as one of your daughters. You have given me such strength as an adult to get through rough times. I truly enjoyed being a part of your family. Thanks for loving my children. I miss coming to visit with you and Ed. I will miss the both of you, I look forward to seeing you both in heaven, I love you. Dawn Burrafato (Dawn Petrowski).

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me posted a condolence

hey ma, How are things going for you? I know well because you are in the lords hands. I am missing you so much and know that you have been traveling with us and lingering around the house. Not many people have been writing you I see. I am sure they are just hurting and trying to continue to handle the loss, or going to the cemetary. I cannot go there and talk to you so i use this, I hope you dont mind. As I am sure you know, we are moving to Colorado. I hope you are able to follow us there, stop in and say Hello !! I am gonna try and get up to your grave site to say hello before I leave. Nikkie sent me the picture and it looks like they are taking care of the site real well, lots of pretty flowers !! Tell aunt maryann I am going to try and link up with Donna when I get there. Well I just wanted to stop in an say hello and let you know your are always on my mind, as I am sure you already know, I see angles in the clouds all the time, I know that you. So when I am feeling lost and alone and just missing you most of the time I can look up into the sky and she you. Im not sure but I wanna believe its you sending the messages like the hearts and angles that we see all the time. I love you and miss you MOM !!!!!! Rest well and spread those beautiful wings the lord blessed you with. He knew that you deserved them and gave them to you !!!!!!!

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ursula posted a condolence

Hi mom. its aug 8th 2008 at 1035pm. i know it has been awhile, but i have a difficult time bringing myself her to write you. I spoke to Jo today but you probably already know that. i am not saying she is 100% right but she did pin point a few things. I know this may sound bad but a part of me really wished i didnt see you go tht way. I think i would have felt much better if you just went to sleep. (no probably not). Jo says you wont rest if any of us are struggling. i have to tell ya, it is a really hard thing to find peace with all of it when deep within us i want you here with me. I look at this picture and i try so hard to envision this as your last look but i am not successful with that. i so want to see you smile. i miss you so much and yes maybe Jo is right a part of me maybe very angry but shouldnt i be aloud too be. i guess i am asking for your help. show me how i can make peace with it all, maybe i should start with your passing and then move forward and i promise i will catch on an make it all work that is best for everyone. but mom understand i will not ever be able to be quiet again so please dont ask me to keep my big mouth shut,lolllll...I am sorry mom for being selfish. i really want you to be at peace. well its ed's brthday soon so i am sure you both will have a blast... I love you mom, hugs and kisses. i promise i will write again real soon. sweet dreams!!!!!!!!!!!

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ME posted a condolence

HEY MOM , I KNOW I TALK TO YOU A WHOLE LOT ON HERE, BUT I CANNOT GET TO THE CEMETARY TO TALK TO YOU. I GUESS THIS WILL HAVE TO DO. URS AND I TALKED A WHOLE LOT TODAY AND I THINK SHE IS STARTING TO SEE WHAT YOU AND I HAVE BEEN SEEING FOR A FEW MONTHS. THATS WHY I KEPT ASKING FOR YOUR HELO IN WATCHING OVER HER. SHE IS SO ANGRY MOM AND SHE IS SO HURT AND TRYING TO KEEP IT ALL BOTTLED UP IS KICKING HER BUTT RIGHT NOW. SHE IS LASHING OUT AT ALL THE WORONG PEOPLE. I KNOW YOU KNOW THIS AND YOU SEE IT AND MYBE IT WAS YOU WHO HELPED ME SEE IT AND GAVE ME THE STRENGTH TO TELL HER. MAYBE IT WAS YOUR VOICE TO HER THAT CAME FROM ME TO HER EARS. I JUST HOPE SHE WAS LISTENING. I KNOW THAT JUST AS WORRIED AS YOU ARE BUT DONT YOU WORRY. I GOT HER AND SO DOES NIKKIE AND AGGIE. MOM MAYBE NOW WOULD BE A GOOD TIME TO GO AND SEE HER. I THINK SHE NEEDS TO SEE YOU AND KNOW THAT YOU ARE OK. SEEING YOU THE LAST FEW MINUTES OF YOUR LIFE WAS HARD ON HER AND SHE WAS SO READY TO NOT SAY GOODBYE. I STILL DONT THINK SHE IS, BUT I KNOW ITS TIME FOR YOU TO GO AND REST AND ENJOY YOUR ETERNAL LIFE WITH THE LORD AND YOUR FAMILY UP THERE. I ALSO KNOW THAT YOU ARE NOT GOING TO LEAVE UNTIL ALL IS SETTLED HERE. I WILL CONTINUE TO SPEAK WITH HER AND HELP HER AS MUCH AS I CAN. I MIGHT NEED SOME FROM HELP FROM YOU SO IF YOU CAN FIND THE TIME TO VISIT HER AND SHOW HER THAT YOU ARE OK AND THE LAST IMAGE OF YOU IS NOT WHAT ITS LIKE FOR YOU NOW THAT MIGHT HELP HER COME TO GRIPS WITH THIS. WE ALL MISS YOU AND LOVE YOU SO MUCH. I LOVE YOU MOMMY.. SWEET DREAMS ME

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Me posted a condolence

Hey MOM, No one has written you in a while. I miss you !! I wish I could come and see you at cemetary but its so far away and I just cannot afford to travel with the gas prices so High. I know you understand. I hope things are well for you and you are just having a blast up there. We all miss you down here and we love you. Have a great day, dance, sing, blair that music up there like you did so many times down here. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU MOMMY !!!!!!

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ME posted a condolence

HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!!!!!!!!!!!!! Well its your birthday and I hope you dance your lil butt off and have a blast with your family upstairs. Its a day to celebrate mom... We all miss you here but we know that you are not hurting anymore and walking around pain free.. I guess its selfish of us to want you here with us knowing that you are so much better off up there with god watching over you and the angels singing "Happy birthday" to you... Loving an Missing you more and more everyday.... Happy Birthday to my beutiful Mother.... we love you !!!!!

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kyle posted a condolence

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!! Dang on things got bad here i ended up at my dads and it is really different here! well change is the first step to success i guess! well i wish you were here to turn 1000000000!!!:))))))))) i love you !! later skater!

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ME posted a condolence

Hey MOM, Well Mom hear Urs came to see you today for your birthday. I heard lil michael left you balloons and flowers. I think that was very nice of him. Its gonna be so hard tomorrow. I wanted to come home and see you, but I can't and im sure you understand, you always do. Mom Urs says she ahs been talking to you but your not answering her, I think we all have been trying to get intouch with you just one last time, however; right now i think Ursula needs to talk to you right now more than anyone. I think for the 1st time in many. many years she need her MOMMY. I think she needs to hear you say its OK and that you love her and understand. That rough exterior of hers is sometime (most of the time) just for show. She really needs you, i think more than she needs any of us right now. We will always be here for her, you taught us well. BE PROUD !!!! Tomorrow will be hard and im not sue ill get to talk to you on here, but know that I love you and I miss you, andd HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!! Ohh yeah one more favor, while you are checking in with Urs can you check in on Nikkie, Aggie, Michael, and Tommy as well... Im sure they would love yo hear from you as well.. or who knows MOM , they just may want to say HAPPY BIRTHDAY to you... I love you mom , Have a GREAT Birthday Beautiful!!!!

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Joann posted a condolence

Hey MOM, your birthday is in a couple days. So i guess a HAPPY BIRTDAY is on order. I know you are in heaven and shinning down on all of us. I dont think i will be able to make it to NJ. to visit your grave site, but please know that i will be tinking of you. It's been 4 months ago today that we layed you to rest and had to walk away feeling like we left the most important person in our lives behind. We are all keeping up wit each other and speaking as often as we can. We all miss you dearly. Mom can you do me a favor and watch over Urs. She is going through a rough time right now as i am sure you already know. I think she needs your help and the lords and I think you have a little more pull right now with him than i do, but im working on it. Keep her safe MOM, im to far away to watch over her but i will always be a phone call away. Alayna made it to hollywood, im sure you know that as well. We are working on raising enough money to get her there on the 6th of august. we raised a few hundred and still have 2,600 to go. I turned over to god and he will guide us there. I miss you yelling at me when i would call and you were tired or i just kept bugging you to make sure you were ok.... GOD i miss you....I LOVE YOU MOMMY and I wish you have great birthday up there, make sure you make a wish and blow out those candles. I guess this year you get to celebrate it with your mom, husband and sisters and brothers. You deserve it and pray what ever you wish for comes true !!!!!!!!!!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOMMY !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Heather posted a condolence

Hey Grandma. Its been awhile since i wrote in this but at least 3 times a day you cross my mind. I miss you so much. i hope ur proud of mom, shes worked so hard on the store. I wish you were here to see it and to spend these hot days out on the porch with us. So i made ur famous chicken cutlets a few weeks back. while i was cookin i just remember you telling me, the trick is to pound the chicken to make them tender. Gosh I miss you so much. I still have my bad days where i think about u so much, i hate on the world for u not being here. Mom misses you alot too. She still has bad days thinking about you.. We all do, I guess in a sence its a good thing, to see how special you were to all of us. I love you grandma, i hope ur watching over all of us.

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Joann posted a condolence

Hey ma, It was a weird day yesterday. It didnt feel like my birthday because the one person that i would have loved to hear from could not call me and i could not hear those words that i hear every year from you. I miss you mommy, i wanna see you you and i know that i cannot. Im not sure where i am going anymore. I feel lost and not sure which way is left or right anymore. I see a bird all the time and sometimes wonder if its you watching me when i go on high risk calls, and that all of a sudden is there. I wanna beleive its you but not sure if its just my mind playing tricks on me. I dont know anything anymore, life is just not the same without you here or at least that phone call away. I love you and I miss you so much and I know everyone else does to. I think we all knda feel lost without you and not quite sure how to find our way.

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michael posted a condolence

The most wonderful person in my life is now at rest. the best memory I have to remember my wonderful aunt by is her famous shout at me " Fatboy go to your room " LOve Fatboy

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Boodha posted a condolence

Hey grandma i miss you very much and i wish i could just give u hugs again... me and candis went to vist you on the 15 of april, it was closed :( but before when we went you would have laughed .. we couldent find you and grandpa, you guys were hiding on us. But when we finnaly got there i dident realize how hard it was to look at a stone and not see your face .. ugh i miss you so much, i just keep telling myself your okay .. and the dream i had made me reasure myself. Come to my dreams again it was so nice to see you smilling at me. I love you G-ma .... always and forver your boodha!

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Heather posted a condolence

Grandma I miss you so much... i really hope that was u in the car with me when i felt a hand on my shoulder. I wish you were here. I love you.

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Joann posted a condolence

Well mommy, it's Mothers Day. A whole lot different without you here. But I wanted to wish you a " Happy Mothers Day". I hope thy are taking care of you up there and everyone knows what a terrific Mom you were/are/and always will be. This is "your day" and you so deserve it. We all miss you and I know its hard on all of us and the kids. I guess you dont realize how much a person means to you until they are gone and how special these days are until you cant share them with that person anymore. I hope you hear all our prayers and thoughts of you, you are probably telling us all to shut up, cause they are flooding you up there. MOMMY WE MISS YOU AND WE LOVE YOU AND HAPPY MOMMYS DAY !!!! YOU ARE OUR NUMBER ONE AND YOU ALWAYS WILL BE

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Pookie! posted a condolence

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Joann posted a condolence

Hey Ma'am, Well Mothers is almost upon us and well not sure how it will go. It will be a very hard day mom cause the ONE MOTHER will not be here and I will not be able to visit you, but i promis i will put some flowers next to your tree and talk to you as i do every day. I look into the ski and wonder where your at and if you are looking down on us, then i say yeah ya are, you mom and no matter what you will be there even if just in our HEARTS . I wish you could come and say hello and let me know your ok and you wont be lonely on mothers day. i love you mom !!!!

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Aggie posted a condolence

Mom just one more thing, Andrew is so so very sad, he asked me if I could have one wish what would it be, I said to keep my famiy safe h said he woukd wish for his nanni back, what can I offer god to give you back to us, ask him for me please!!!!!!!

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Aggie posted a condolence

Mommy, I cant stop crying today, I sometimes think I hear you saying on the answering machine " hi its only your mom" For all the non call backs I am sorry..Mom I keep waiting for you to come and talk to me but you don't. They say you said goodbye that day and you were finished but I am not. Mom I scared it's so hard knowing your not here with us. Please mom I just want to hear your voice bitching about something. I know we all miss you so very very much, mothers day will never be the same because we don't have you. I have one wish and that is just to hear your voice again. Can you please ask god I have but i don't think he is listening. I love you mommy

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Joann posted a condolence

Hey Mom, Well it sounds like we are all having a hard time with missing you and hoping to see you in one way or another. I thought you came to see me the other day through a bird on the roof. The bird kept swalking when i was getting into my patrol car. I looked up to see what the bird was yelling at and it appeared that the bird was waving to me with its wing. I swear it was you saying hi and you would be by my side throughout the day. I am not sure if its my imagination playing tricks on me or if you really were there. I love you mommy and i miss you so very much. If i hear one more time how time will heal im gonna punch someone. Time will never heal the pain of our loss and time can never replace mommy !!!!!! I LOVE YOU AND I MISS YOU MORE AND MORE EVERY DAY. I WISH I COULD BE THERE TO VISIT YOU.

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Ursula posted a condolence

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Ursula posted a condolence

Hi mom. I really dont know where to start or what to say. I am so sorry i havent wrote, i guess i just couldnt bring myself to write you its hard enough that i have to speak to a stone every week too see you. i talk to you every day and hope one day you would talk back. (silly, i know). I went to buy you a mothers day card and it was so hard. the 3rd most difficult thing i ever had to do. the 1st was to tell you that night that it would be ok when in my heart i dont know that it will ever really be ok. eveyone always says your not in any pain and in a much better place. there is NO better place than to be with the people that love you. and that would be with us. i miss you so-so much mom...you truly have been the inspiration and strength for all of us. u would be so proud of joann, i know you heard her speech and she couldnt have said it any better. dont you ever forget that. we will keep our promise but we need to ask one of you and that is to drop in everyonce in a while and say hi, even if it means to yell at us and put us back on track. you always had a way of making it happen and this is one we are gonna need your help with.. we will talk mom, again soon. i love you soooooo much and i miss you just the same.....forever! URSULA

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kyle posted a condolence

Sorry I never told you All I wanted to say And now it's too late to hold you 'Cause you've flown away So far away Never had I imagined Living without your smile Feeling and knowing you hear me It keeps me alive Alive And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven Like so many friends we've lost along the way And I know eventually we'll be togetherOne sweet day Darling, I never showed you Assumed you'd always be there I took your presence for granted But I always cared And I miss the love we shared And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven Like so many friends we've lost along the way And I know eventually we'll be together One sweet day Although the sun will never shine the same I'll always look to a brighter day Lord I know when I lay me down to sleep You will always listen as I pray And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven Like so many friends we've lost along the way And I know eventually we'll be together One sweet day And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven Like so many friends we've lost along the way And I know eventually we'll be together One sweet day Sorry I never told you All I wanted to say

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Heather posted a condolence

Grandma, todays one month, and i miss you so much. Time flies, i just wish you were stll here. I talk about you a lot, to everyone. Sometimes i wanna pick up the phone or come over just to hear your voice again. Gsh this is so hard.. But i just wanted to check in with you again. I love you so much.

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Joann posted a condolence

well well well mom... Olive Oil said you came to see her a couple days ago. she said that you were in a white dress,with wings and a halo. She told us you were ok and you missed and loved us. Thanks mom.. I was worried about you but you came and seen alayna thats great she said you were ok and god was watching over you. See believes that you are going to come back one way or another if its a bird or a plant or whatever. She is a little sad and misses you but y ou Alayna she is quiet and dont say much so i figured thats why you must have gone to see her because she hold her feelings inside and you saw what Jason and I must have been missing and the sorrow of her missing her grandma. THANKS AGAIN MOM !! Good looking out. I love you and I miss you ME

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Joann posted a condolence

Hey ma, well it will be a month tomorrow since lord took into his arms and welcomed you into his kingdom. I wish I was home so I could come and see you. I planted you a tree with big Orange flowers, they are beautiful just like you. I know you are watching over all of us and I know you can see our pain, and tears, but thats just because we loved you more than anything in the world. Some days are harder than others and i am sure we are all trying to keep busy so we dont think about it, but sometimes that just does not work. Its ashame I think about you more now than i did when you were her. I suppose cause i always thought you would be here for us all. I guess i took that one for granted HUH!!! You are my sunshine and the air i breath everyday and i am so sorry if i ever took you for granted cause I know now how much you presence means. ILOVE YOU MOM AND I MISS YOU SO VERY MUCH !!!!

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alayna posted a condolence

i love you sssooooooooooo much!!!!!!!!!!i miss you and luv you (:

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Olive Oil(Alayna) posted a condolence

So, What do you think of heaven is it everything you hoped.Well at least is it warm and comfirable.I don't believe that preacher I know you'll come back with Strangth..Care..Life. We LUV you ssssssooooooooooo much. Love ya, bye Alayna A.K.A Olive Oil

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Booda posted a condolence

Hey grandma tonightim not doing to good. I was looking threw my prom pictures and there is a picture where none of us were ready and you were laughing, and im so upset because I miss hearing you laugh. I miss you yelling at me, I miss my driving lessons, I miss your hugs, your kisses, and talking to me when I noone else would listen. Its so hard to except the fact your not 5 minutes away any more. I know the dream i had about you is soposed to help me but it makes me miss you more. Just one more Kabeetsa, even though that hurt the heck out of my cheeks i miss it. I want to say thankyou for everything you have done for me and the whole family you are our shinning star and every night i look up to see how bright you shine in the sky. I Love you!

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Heather posted a condolence

Hey Grandma, I just wanna say thank you for whatever it is your doing. I've never seen things so clear. Every little thing that happens, i believe are signs that your with us. even as little as something falling off a table, when Im having a bad day. You know id have to pick it up, so therefore i believe your sending me a message to pick myself back up. I have ambition grandma, something i lacked for awhile now. and the only thing that makes sence of it all relates back to you. i miss you sooo sooo much. as hard as it still is not having u around, there are way to many signs to believe your not with me in some kind of way. you are and always will be the best gift given in life. i love you.

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Lisa Camerlin (Richards) posted a condolence

Ursula, My deepest sympathies to you and your family. I remember your mom very fondly. Lisa Camerlin

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Joann posted a condolence

Hey ma, well ma its been a little over three weeks now and i still have not heard or seen you. I was kinda hoping you would stop by tho say hello and that you were ok. Its been a little over three weeks since you left and people keep saying it will get easier with time. I DONT BELIEVE THAT!! I wish you were here so i can call you even if you dont want to talk or dont feel like it, it was ok, i understood, i at leat got to hear your voice and knew you were ok, Now i am not so sure, i wanna call you but i know i cannot cause your not gonna answer. I miss you MOM, I love you, I just need to know how to get rid of this VOID that i feel everyday. I feel like someone took the foundation from benieth me. I LOVE YOU MA !!!

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kyle posted a condolence

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Kyle g posted a condolence

i dont know what i should do..grams everything is wrong..school is getting so hard, im so behind, and i just cant get a break, im in crazy trouble for something so stupid at school. i might get suspended ugh..im trying but its just not falling into place...just stay beside me please...i miss you so much in class today i wanted to cry when i drew you a picture..i wish you were here grammy, it sucks so much i wanna be there with you i feel so alnoe sometimes now i dont know why but hey ill keep fighting cause faith without fear is how you raised me!!!...i got my senior pics by the way ill leave one for you next time i see you ok...take care of her god.. SEE YOU LATER!!!

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Heather posted a condolence

Hey my love.. Today was a crappy day, i thought about you a lot. I think I check this more then my myspace, because I get to see you. Things have been falling into place, and i believe you have something to do with it. I think im finally finding myself grandma, and i believe in my heart your with me every step of the way. What Id give to just get one more of your wet kisses.lol i really wish you were here. i miss cuddling with u on the bed or on the couch. you were always good for cuddling, and watching lifetime or "monker movies". Its so hard to look at Aunt Nikki sometimes, cuz I see u in her, in so many ways. She has ur strength , ur attitude and she looks so much like you. I miss you more and more everyday. I beat myself up for not spending enough time with you. I shoulda been there with u everyday.I hope ur taken care of up there, and u come and visit once in awhile. I love you so much.

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kyle G posted a condolence

okay so its been awhile grandma and this really sucks. somehow now your gone everything relates to you, it all reminds me of you, i miss you so much:.(, i think about you every step of the way,HOW DO I LIVE WITHOUT YOU! i want to know... you are always around my neck g-ma and its crazy im doing everything i can to keep my grades up cause i let them slip...i love you, and please grandma give my mom strength and the knowledge that you are with her all the time, shes really sad, show her your there..i love you ILL SEE YOU LATER...

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Heather posted a condolence

Hey Grandma, I went over to ur house yesterday, and i wished ur door was locked and ud come and open it for me.. but it was open and so empty. Theres so much i wanna tell you, maybe u can hear me, but i could only wish to hear you too. Mom was saying that someone told her to write a letter to you, and ud come visit. Id write u a novel more then a letter.. lol i miss you so much. My heart breaks with every thought of you. I love you...

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JOANN posted a condolence

Hey Ma, Its a bad day and all i can do is think of you. God i miss you, somedays i think you are sitting right next to me in my patrol car but i cannot see you or touch you, or tell you how much i love and miss you. I wish you were still here so i can call you on my way to work as i did everyday. Im sorry im not being as strong as i probably should be, but i think this is the hardest thing i have ever had to do and i think thats just accepting that you are gone, i dont think i can do this ma. i love and miss you so very much.

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aggie lis posted a condolence

Mommy it's Easter and all my thoughts are of you. I can never forget all the sacrifices in life you gave to us. You were the only parent we had or new...You did ask what have you done in life, what you did for us and everyone who knew you was touch us like no one ever did. Be proud because we are proud of you. I love you mommy...We will meet again and laugh like we did. I miss you!!!Aggie

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mary ann caiola(steve's daughter) posted a condolence

Aunt Joan..I know we were never close growing up but my Colao family is always in my thoughts, unfortunately I was unaware of your passing or I would have payed my respects to you and the family. As I read everyone's memories I can recall some fun times when I was able to spend time at grandma's and yes I also remember good meatballs, I also can tell you had much suffering with your illness, so now may you rest in peace with your family that has passed before you. Maybe one day we shall meet again. Respectfully Mary Ann

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Heather posted a condolence

Hey Grandma I wrote you something, its nothing to extreme but i was thinking about you... If tomorrow never comes, Id know we've made you smile. Like the times we'd bust ur chops, and you'd be quick to blame kyle. If tomorrow never comes, i'll remember the joke between you candis and me. Grandmas good ole clint, will go down in history. If tomorrow never comes, Id know you loved us all. Every special occassion, you never forgot to call. If tomorrow never comes, We could never forget ur face. you were the one and only grandmother, that could never be replaced. I miss you Grandma! So if tomorrow never comes, I would'nt even care. Cuz I'd glady go to heaven, just to see u there. i cant stop thinking about you.. Life isnt the same without u grandma. =( i love you!!!

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Nadia posted a condolence

Well Ma, I love this website, I wish they had this when my Mom passed away, its safe and it feels like I can say anything. I just wanted to tell, not like you already don't know this, but you are an amazing Mother- as a friend looking in, at your service I saw your children with tears running down their faces, their hearts broken however through it all, your strength shinned through. People came from far & near, they all had nothing but the best memories of you. I know this to be all true, because I have only known you for 5years and I see how much you have touched my life, my families life. Dad was so sad his girlfriend had to leave him too. Rio is just beside herself, she promised to take care of Lexi for you. You will be so missed however never for a second forgotten- I heard you in Chruch screaming at the Priest - I know I did. Well Ma - you have lots of friends & family to catch up with in Heaven- You know Nori & I got Nikki for you - and thanks for not remembering my name and telling me oh whatever your name is - I knew than as I know now, you were so much more than a friend, you will always be ~MA~ xoxo Chao Bella

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Nikki posted a condolence

Wow, ma the house is so quiet. When I came home yesterday and walked in I was waiting to here you call me and Zeus bark. How Ironic is the dog who didn't like many really loved his grandma. I know he is there with you and he waited to leave this earth after you. You definetly would have been proud of us yesterday. Joann wrote such a beautiful letter and she knew exactly how we all felt. I didn't realize how strong you made us and how you past this strenght to each and everyone one of us. We have learned so much from you. My heart hurts so much right now but all I hear is you telling me. Nikki I love You and don't forget it. I still here you telling me how hard headed and strong willed I am. But you always finished it with you are definetly my daughter. For that I am grateful and blessed. Now it's time for you to rest and enjoy all the family that you haven't seen in a long time. I love you mom

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Nikki posted a condolence

Wow, ma the house is so quiet. When I came home yesterday and walked in I was waiting to here you call me and Zeus bark. How Ironic is the dog who didn't like many really loved his grandma. I know he is there with you and he waited to leave this earth after you. You definetly would have been proud of us yesterday. Joann wrote such a beautiful letter and she knew exactly how we all felt. I didn't realize how strong you made us and how you past this strenght to each and everyone one of us. We have learned so much from you. My heart hurts so much right now but all I hear is you telling me. Nikki I love You and don't forget it. I still here you telling me how hard headed and strong willed I am. But you always finished it with you are definetly my daughter. For that I am grateful and blessed. Now it's time for you to rest and enjoy all the family that you haven't seen in a long time. I love you mom

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Steven posted a condolence

Hey G'ma, God I'll never forget the day you taught me how to make those awesome italian meatballs, you were the best cook. I'll def. miss you g'mizzle, you'll always be in my heart and mind. Love you always steve

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Tom Evelina posted a condolence

Joanie will be sadly missed. Though we hadn't seen her in a while, we have great memories of fun times together. May you rest in peace...

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Heather posted a condolence

Grandma I miss you, life just doesn't seem the same without you. Know That you are always in my thoughts & forever in my heart. I love you -Heather

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cindy posted a condolence

Nikki,Steve and Lexie, we can't express how sorry we are for the loss of you mother and grandmother. Just know that you are in our thoughts and prayers. We love you all. Please give our condolences to the rest of your family. Love, Presley, Cindy, Christy, Collin and Grandma Keen Lake

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barbara o'brien and family posted a condolence

So sorry to hear about her passing. It shocked me deeply.Deepest sympathies to the whole family. Will miss her

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Tommy Hatzinas posted a condolence

To a special woman that touched many lives, you will always be remembered and cherished. May you Rest In Peace! With all our love, thoughts and prayers to the family. Love You Ma!!!!

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Cousin Chris posted a condolence

JOAN I know you're finally at peace, I just want to let you know there were times when you were more than a cousin to me, you were my best friend and I want to thank you for that, you always knew when to pick me up when I was down. I wish I could be there to say my last good-bye, but I already did that in one of your dreams. You will always be our prayers, thoughts and forever in our hearts. God bless and keep you always...Love your cousins Chris, Frank and Eddie (The Fugitive)

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Paul posted a condolence

I guess it comes down to this huh. One of the few times i get to talk to you is through an a web blog. This wasn't even around when you were my age! i guess memories too short is quite appropriate being that I neglected to make time for those memories. So this is us one on one ok grandma, i dont have to many memories to go off of, but I do have a porcelain hobo(thanks) and as many words as I can type right now. So yea, so far my life is going well. Im not really sure that I'm making enough of an impact, but I am working on that. I wish sometimes i had the courage to be as honest and blunt as you. School is going well; I am studying International Business at UNCG. I wanted to take the doll you gave me to school but knowing me I would have broken it. You should see this picture they have of you on here, It doesnt do you justice; but at least you look happy. I guess it's true that bad news never has good timing, the night before i heard about your passing me and my girlfriend broke up, talk about a double header of hurt! I suppose i shouldnt make this too long, but i never really got to update you on the things in my life, i never got to actually be a grandson. Its kind of funny how people are debateing over which song they want to play, or which song to sing at your funeral (personally I think we should play something festive to avoid the tear jerkers. I dont look too hott with water flowing from my eyes, it takes away from the manly appeal ya know?)Ok well i keep getting hassled about this silly computer so i guess we can pick this up later, ok? I love you G-MA (G cause your so hood!) Thanks for the smiles, they let me know that your going to be there for me whenever I need you, and truth be told, I could really use you right now, My heart is hearting. Love you, Paulie

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Silvana & Peter posted a condolence

Urs, Joanne, Nikki, Aggie, Tommy and Mike - our thoughts and prayers are with you all and your families. We are so sorry for your loss. Love Peter and Silvana

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Denise Farrington posted a condolence

Aunt Joan, I love you very much and will miss you. You were not only my aunt but my godmother. These last months have been hard on me cause I lost my sister and now I was losing you I could go to you for anything and you would make me feel so much better. Growing up I always wanted to be at your house cause you were the most cools aunt in the world we had alot of great times. I know that Doreen has taken you by the hand and along with all the family and you are happy. you are home with your family. I know that it is going to be hard to say good bye to you but I am not going to say it what I am going to say is "Aunt Joannie I will see you soon and then we will have a cup of Tea together again like we always did" I love you and miss you so much Give my sister a big hug and kiss for me and please watch over me till we meet agian. YOU WILL ALWYAS BE IN MY HEART FOREVER. Love Your Goddaughter Denise aka(jennie)

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Jason posted a condolence

Ma, You have definitely changed my life as well as so many others, for the better with the love that you showed us all. The world is a lesser place without you here,and we will be sad without you, but at the same time happy, because we all know that you are in heaven. When I first came into this family I was amazed at the strong family bond that emanates from this family, and it did not take long to figure out who was the one responsible for such a close and loving family with so much strength. You are, and you always will be the bright light that draws so many to its source. We all love you and are patiently waiting for the day when we will all see you in heaven. You are missed and you will not be forgotten.

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Joseph posted a condolence

You left the world with us in tears.But we will all miss you ol Grandma dear.

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ur chinc baby (angela) posted a condolence

Dear Grandma, Other than my mother...you are the strongest person I know. When you passed I was confused and angry, but then I realized that you were an angel on earth and now you're an angel in heaven. I thought I saw you yesterday driving here and all my anxiety went away and I knew you would guide me just like you did when you were here. You will always be remembered and the mark you left on everyones heart will keep your memories alive. Grandma I love you and miss you very much. Keep smiling and shining your bright light down on us. xoxoxoxo angie

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Alayna Creekmore posted a condolence

Dear grandma, You left earth leaving your pain and stride but, not leaving your family.Though we feel sadness we know your watching over us.Millions of tears may fall of joy and dispare.Joy for no more pain and dispare for the way of leaving earth.So I just want to say I love you with all my heart. Love, Alayna

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candis posted a condolence

hey grandma, i miss u so much. i never thought this day would come. i wish i spent more time with u but i cant change that. i will always remember u sneakin us drinks at fridays n hustling us in cards. Eating ur meatballs n makin fun of ur clint. I hate the fact that ur going to miss us grow up n old but i know ull be watchin over us. i love u so much

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Nikki posted a condolence

Mom, I need your strenght now more than ever to keep going. Know that I'll love you forever. Your daughter always Nikki

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Alexis posted a condolence

Grandma, Forever in my heart I'll always love you , you'll always be on my side and never will be forgoten. Love, Alexis

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Joann posted a condolence

Dearest Mother, I just want to let you know What's in my heart You know that I love you so. You are one of a kind. You will hold special place where all of your love lives. It broke out hearts to see you cry, and our tears would come running down I could never understand the reason why the cancer chose you. I can see hurt and pain in your frown as so many times you would try to hide it and so many days that you just could not. When you were asleep in bed and I am still wide, awake. I would kiss your head and pray the lord would take the pain away. When I look back to through past I recall all of your love, strength, and determination I love you more each day. I prayed to the lord every day that he could kiss away your pain as you did when we were kids and dry your tears. If I could, I would have stopped your unwanted rain and scare away your fears. No words can explain how I feel. I can never thank you enough for all the love and pain you have healed and only sorrow for not being able to heal yours. The lord has finally come and took the pain away that we all tried so desperately to do. The Lord has given you the brightest and largest wings he had, knowing that you have more then earned them. You have always been the flame in our fire and light in our lives. Mommy fly high and soar you are finally are free from the hurt and pain. Tell every one we said hello and we miss them all. You missed but WILL NEVER BE FORGOTTEN. WE WILL SEE YOU AGAIN. Until then ,Mama, I Love You!!!

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Kyle Gorman posted a condolence

G-ma..lol..well its a lonely feeling knowing that the one person who kept you going is now not here to give you the inspiration, but there will be not one day that goes by that you dont coss my mind, you give me strength and courage and hope! you held on for so long, i miss you grammy! Within my heart are memories of perfect love that you gave to me, noone will replace you and I LOVE YOU!! I JUST WANT TO SAY HELLO AGAIN..remember last time, its no goodbyes, just ILL SEE YOU LATER!!:-))))

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Nadia posted a condolence

Ma, It brings me much sadness to leave this little note for you. However I needed you to know that it has been my pleasure to have had you in my life! Since the day I met you, you have treated me and my family as if you raised us your entire life. You are one of the strongest, kindest and funniest woman I have ever met in my life. Dad,Tommy, Rio,Hyatt and I will miss you very much. I know your still living your life after death! You will be truly missed and never forgotten. Thank you for your hugs,kisses and all the joy you have given me. Now you can tell my Mom all about her Dad!! With all our love, Nadia & Family

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ursula gorman posted a condolence

Hi Mom, How do we say thank you fo eveything you have done for us. I know you already know this but you are the strongest woman we have ever known. You have always been there for us. Their is million things I want to say but nothing comes out right now. You mean the world to all of us. We will talk soon mom. I love you. Ursula

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Ursula posted a condolence

Monday, March 15, 2021

Hi mom, it’s been a long time since I have visited. To long! there isn’t a day where I don’t think of you and wish I could hear your voice. Many many things have changed for all of us, you have several great grandchildren who you would just spoil rotten... the funny thing is you would let them get away with everything you would stop us from doing, lol..... your grandchildren are all grown and often talk and laugh in the wonderful memories you gave them. It’s been a while since I’ve seen you in my dreams, I guess you thought I needed to find my way. I have and I am very happy. We kept our promise and we are all together, well..... Michael touches base with Aggie once in a while... but you know him he was always a loner. We are here for him if he needs us. Love you more.. tell Ed we send hugs. Until next time. Love Ursula

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Alexis posted a condolence

Tuesday, September 1, 2020

Hi Nonnie, It has been a little over 12 years since you left us. Not a day goes by that I don't think of you. I have been reading the condolences all day and forgot that I wrote to you years ago. I was really young when you passed but I remember you like the back of my hand. A lot has happened in this family over the years. Some good, some bad. I have always been the type to keep everything bottled up. As I get older I realize that sometimes that is not the best solution. I will be 22 this month, and I just wanted to thank you for saving mommy and letting her be here to celebrate my 22nd. You and Grandma Wack are the only ones that know exactly what is going on in my life, and that's how I like it. But today is extremely hard for me. Everything that is going on is starting to be too much for me to handle. I found out that one of my best friends from school died in a car accident. He was taken too young grandma. Please let him know that he is missed and loved. And keep an eye on him for me, he likes to get into trouble from time to time. Mommy had to put down Max a couple of weeks ago. We got Max and Charlie right after you passed. I had a special connection with them, because I felt like they were your gift to us. So we wouldn't be lonely after you took Zeus two days after you left. Now there is just Charlie and he doesn't have that much time left either. But mommy will never be lonely, she has Oreo. my rescue dog. She is a handful, but she will protect mommy. It is tough being out on my own. But i could not live in that environment anymore. I am trying to do what is best for everyone, but in this point in my life. I want to be selfish. I need to be selfish and do what is best for me and not worry about anyone else. As you know I got married. Biggest mistake of my life with the worst person you could imagine. The divorce is almost final, but he has mentally and emotionally drained me. Please help me and hope this is over soon. I have met someone else. His name is Chandler. He must be special if I am coming on here and writing about him. We had a rocky start, but I want to believe it was you and Grandma Wack looking over him the morning that he crashed. I don't know what I would do if he was severely injured or if he joined you up there. We had a little falling out a couple of weeks ago. He said he needed some space and be a better him. Which is perfectly fine. I want him to be happy. I am not completely happy with myself, but that never changed the way I felt about him. After he came back, I am having a really hard time to trust him with me again. Not the cheating aspect, but what if he wakes up again one day and decides that he doesn't love me anymore. What if I am still not good enough? I can't go through that again. After everything that I have done for him. I am scared grandma. I know I do not need anyone in my life, but I want him there. I want him to be the one. But I need to know if he is. I am questioning it again. and it is not fair to him at all. Adulting is hard grandma. I want to go back to turkey sandwiches right out of the pool and running around the yard with water guns. As I just asked you to help me know if he is the one. He just text me to listen to the song "Pretty Heart" by Parker McCollum. Thank you for that. I really needed something good. Speaking of something good, I got a new job. It is better pay with benefits. Which means that I can finish school for Physical Therapy. I am so excited. That is about all I wanted to talk about. They rest you know what is going on. Thank you for listening. I miss you like crazy. And your gravy with sausage and pepperoni. I even tried to make it like you, but it will never be the same. Enough about food, I am so hungry. I love you Nonnie, please watch over everyone up there.

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Foach (Lexi) posted a condolence

Tuesday, August 12, 2014

Hi nani, wow it's been a little over 6 years. I wish I had wrote this sooner, But I just didn't. I'm gonna be 16 next month!!! And I still make mommy feel really old, but she looks good for her age, don't tell her I said that though shhhhhhh! Anyway a lot has happened these passes years. I remember you don't worry. Blasting Cher, everybody could hear you from a mile away!!! Remember when you got pulled over by a cop on what was it?? 206? You totally used your charm and got out of a ticket by saying you just back from chemotherapy!!! Wow that was original :) and that same cop was at aunt aggies house the next day because it caught on fire. Talk about bad luck. I miss you so much grandma. There are things that happen everyday that I wish I could tell you about. But I'm sure you're watching me saying curse words under your breath ;) god I miss you. God we miss you!!! Now you've got Colten, aunt Ursula, and grandma Wack! I hope you're having fun wherever you are. I love you, all of you!

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Kyle posted a condolence

Tuesday, March 18, 2014

Hey, Its been 6 years now. It gets easier in time but from time to time I cry missing you so much. Mommy was hurt and it tore me apart. I am in pain because you are gone and I really don't know how I can picture mommy being gone one day. I'm scared for that moment. We are all grown now. Moved away and time lost because of my marriage breaks me. I know loss and pain so well. I got everything back but the price I paid wasn't a fair deal. I live here alone and I am so sad at times. I want my family around. I wish you were still here. But thanks for being in my life. You have been a strong point when I am weak and I cry for you. It never stops hurting. Please watch mommy and help her stop smoking. We can't lose her..I love you! You are genuinely missed

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Heather posted a condolence

Monday, January 27, 2014

Its been almost 6 years since you passed, and yet I find myself praying to you a lot more lately. Missing you like if you were gone just yesterday. I pray that baby Colten has found his way into your arms. He was such a good baby, my heart breaks for those who never cared to meet him. If only they knew what they missed out on in his short life. All the smiles and love he brought to our family, and how he has changed us so much. I just need to find comfort in knowing Colten is with you, I miss him so much. I love you Nonie.

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kyle posted a condolence

Saturday, July 27, 2013

Hey grandma. Please guide mom right now. She needs you. We all do. You were the lock that held us all together and things just haven't been the same. I know you watch me as i cry for you. I love you and i just miss you. :/

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kyle posted a condolence

Monday, January 28, 2013

:/ I miss you, you were an amazing person. I miss blaring Celine Dion in your Suzuki! Things here are tough at time I know your here protecting everyone. I would have loved for you to be here

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aggie posted a condolence

Tuesday, August 28, 2012

wow mommy i started righting to you and the page went crazy, wish I believed it was you telling me something, mom I am so very sad more and more each day. I seemed to have failed in every way. marriage is a bust, kids could care less just want to lye around and live off of me, animals are driving me crazy. I can't seems to just catch a break. I feel lost and lonely without a friend in the world. what do i do mom I have no where else to turn, you got GRA with you maybe you can ask her and brain storm for me. I miss you more and more and more mom,please look out for Jimmy and give Urs the strength she needs.....

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Joann posted a condolence

Friday, March 16, 2012

Hey beautiful, it's been a long four years and the love we all have for you never seems to fade. I guess that's GOD's way of letting us know what an amazing mother we had, Ya know he makes everyone so unique and so full of love and laughter. I know he does and how I know is I look back on all our memories and see so much of it; from the drive in theaters to the drive to weekends at the lake. I know you remember those. We have been so blessed with so much love for each other and so much love for you. Miss Ya :-) !!!

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candis posted a condolence

Thursday, March 15, 2012

I love and miss you so much every day! Not a day goes by where I don't think of you..there are so manny things I wish you could be here for .....

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Aggie posted a condolence

Thursday, March 1, 2012

Hi mom, mom I ma so tired and just feel like giving up, how did you do it. I am always sad I think of you more than I breathe if I forgot to ever tell you that. Urs is right it sucks pain does not go away my heart never healed and it's not fair, God gives us life and love and takes it away to end up with pain and sadness. I know I have lost it because this damn page seems to be my best friend... Mom I am so sorry if I ever let you down in life I know just how hard it is. I miss you and cant wait to see you again xoxoxo

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ME posted a condolence

Wednesday, February 22, 2012

Hey Mom, So nice to see people are back on here talking to you. Its only a few more weeks before it will be four years that God called you home. I thought it would get easier with time or so I have been told, but I think they lied. It does not get easier I think it gets harder. I felt like I hit a brick wall yesterday and the tears came down like a waterfalls. I miss you so much mom, sometimes i wish I was still that little girl that you would trap in your legs so you could get a nap in and I would not wonder and get into all kinds of stuff that I should not. betcha you thought I had forgotten that. I love mom and I miss you so much everyday.

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Christine Otterbine posted a condolence

Wednesday, February 22, 2012

Hey Cuz just to let you know we're thinking of you, and missing you, we were more than cousins at times and I miss that closeness. I could talk to you and you never let me down. Miss those good ole days. Love and miss you, rest in peace always....Cousin Chris

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Aggie posted a condolence

Wednesday, February 22, 2012

Hi mom. well as you can see it all seems to be falling apart. You were the glue who held it all together. I am missing you so much and find myself wondering aimlessly in what I am doing wrong. As you know its been an terrible year sickness, kids, relationship i am so your daughter,. Mom I wish you would come and sit beside me and hold my hand like we would do on our way to chemo. Mommy you always asked me if it was okay and I told you no. It was not okay you were leaving us, not okay you got sick and all the people who hurt you in life still walk and talk and breathe....I ache for you I now see as an adult what I did not understand as a kid.. I miss my brothers and sisters they all seem to busy to talk these days. Please mom come and hold my hand and never let it go. I love you....

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Boodha posted a condolence

Wednesday, February 22, 2012

Hey grandma I know its been a while. I have so many things going on in my life and i wish you were here to help me. I was always the one to put a smile on my face when everything was going wrong but truth is you were the only one i could ever run to when I felt like nothing was going to get better. I remember curling up to you when ever i felt down and you use to run your fingers through my hair and tell me " Baby, everything is going to be okay." It was your words that always made me feel safe, knowing i always had you there for me. And lately with everything going on in my life i feel like i hit rock bottom. There is so much fighting going on between me and mom and at times i feel so alone,like i dont belong. I sit back and i just try to picture you hear with me telling me everything will be okay. I know your up there watching over me I just want you to know i miss you and love you very much. And no matter what challenges in life lie ahead of me I know you will be there to guide me through them. I love you grandma xoxo.

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ME posted a condolence

Sunday, May 8, 2011

HAPPY MOTHERS DAY MOMMY. I MISS YOU AND I LOVE YOU. I wish I could be there to put flowers at your grave myself, but as you know, you all welcomed Jasons gma up there a few days ago. I love you mom

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joann posted a condolence

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

Hey Mom, Well its almost "Mother Day" and you so missed. I wish you could be here so that I can tell you how much we LOVE you. Sometimes I wish we had said it or told you so many times more. I know you are up in Heaven dancing with the Lord himself and I know you fly by me all the time watching over and i guess that gives me a little sense of security knowing that you are alright. I love you MOM and I Miss you soooooooooooooo much. "HAPPY MOTHERS DAY"!!!!

Joan A. Baker

1944 - 2008

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